Chapter Five

A trance
Is nothing more than
The lie your in.

You think you got me
You try to convince me
That everything is all right.

I'll tell you something true-
Your wrong.

I have yet to see the day that your eyes can see again.
The day where you tell me something reasonable.
The day we are both equals- the day we don't lie.

I can't remain
In this constant stage
Of fighting.

The current has pulled me
Far away from you
And has pushed me onto the shore.

A new beginning
Means another end.

A new life
Means another chance-
Another chance that I may end up back in the water-
Back to the inconstant stage of
Lying.

Chapter Four

Act like a
No one and
Growl with
Every moment where
Redemption meets your fate.

Make the
Attitude a penalty of
Death.

Leave the truth with the
Incoherant, for
Everyone still remains false.

Forget what that person
Answered- for they
Knew you would believe that
Everyone is true- that everyone is real.

Chapter Three

Anger resides
I can't resist
The urge to tell you
How I feel.

But I cant
For once I do
There is no difference
Between us.

You are the monster
I fear to become
And I am the child
Watching your every move.

But, yet I already know
Which path to take
And it seems so simple now-
I won't go down yours.

Your incompetance
Scares me.

Your incoherence
Worries me.

Your face
Tells me what a lie is.

How can I be Jubilant
When I see how dubious you are
To the aloof side of others
When you are nothing more.

How can I be understanding
When you drink away your life-
Smoke away your worries-
And prepare yourself for no tomorrow.

I am angry.

I am mad.

I won't help the undeserving
If the undeserving has no intention of helping themselves.

Chapter Two- A Walk

Kick the stone,
I tell myself,
For life is nothing more than the stone itself.
Kicking, accessible.
Shaking, allowed.
Destroying- unavoidable.
Run along the side of the river,
I tell myself,
For life is nothing more than the run itself.
Passing, accessible.
Forgetting, allowed.
Halting- unavoidable.
Walk back home,
I tell myself,
For life is nothing more than the walk itself.
Slowness- unavoidable.
Fastness- unavoidable.
And then there is the Solitude.
Thats when I know the meaning of life,
Solitude.

Chapter One- Who am I

Leave me alone.
You always have.
I'm rotting from the inside, out.
There's no beginning,
There's no end.
I'm now the infinite idea,
That the rotted can never be revived.
I'm now the infinite sound,
Of a bird that never chirps.
I'm now the infinite feeling,
Of being burned so severely, that you don't ever feel a thing.
I'm now the infinite smell,
Of a rose drowned in water- in reach of your hand.
I'm now the infinite taste,
Of a chocolate I'll never have.
So, step back.
I don't need any more pain.
I don't need any more longing.
I don't need any of your help.
Because-
I am the girl who is pretending to be something I'm not.
I am the girl who is spoiled down to the brim.
I am the girl who likes people to feel sorrow for me.
I am the girl,
Who is the lie you'll always hear.
The one that goes,
I'll tell you who I am.